Thanks for all of your submissions.I'm leaving monday to go see my family. I'm doing the 16 hour drive alone, which i think and hope will be awesome for me. I just hope the gulf isn;t so bad off that I can't take my neices to the ocean We had a nice dinner, he's being kind. I guess that I should think that it's better to be seperated or divorced and not have someone hating you that your married to, right? I mean what exactly are some of us fighting for?? I'm getting kind of discouraged reading what some of you said. Maybe I should just let it go. He'll be staying in our home while I'm gone. I guess a part of me was/is hoping he would get complacent in his own home, and maybe miss his old life. I guess it's just as possible that he will re-write history and remember the times this bad thing or that bad thing happened. I wonder how many of us are co-dependants and need to learn to let go... I have so many awesome friends, and i know i'm still young. I guess I should just move on. I wish I knew if there were hope. Last night I had a funny dream we were laying in bed and he said 'I can't I'm chasing you around now and want you back', to which i responded 'I can' and got up and walked away!! HA HA wouldn't that be final justice? OK OK, i sound petty.... sorry for that. While I'm gone, I don't think I'll call him much. Justto let him know I got there ok, and maybe to return a call or ask about the animals. Should I just think of myself as divorced? Should I treat him like a distant friend? I payed for three sessions with the db coach. When I spoke to her he was coming to dinner in one hour, so I fallowed her advise and we had a really nice dinner. We laughed and had fun... then he didn't even hug me goodbye. It didn;t hurt my feelings thatmuch, just seemed like a way to reject me. So... cheerleaders and realists welcome... thank you so much for taking the time to respond to me y'all.
