WAW and the law of attraction

[FormelyknownasF]

I was deleting her emails the other day and the last one I had from her before
this whole hell started. It read:

"I'm missing you so much, this holiday is not the same without you. The food doesn't have any taste, the sun is not warm. I miss you. So glad it's only a few days until you arrive"

So what do I want?

Not sure, G. Some times I think I want to make sense of this. For my own mental health.

It's not that I want to pursue her, I just that I never got to tell her my side of the story and it's also unfair that she never really gets to know what happened.

I know she's hurt and I'm hurt but the truth of what happened needs to be revealed. Even if it is by her reading a book and not through me.

She deserves it.

And even if it ends here. We still have to take care of my stuff, closing bank accounts, etc. How do we go from here?

I'm sorry I screwed this by wording my "request" wrong.
So sorry.