I've been really good about taking care of myself during this whole mess. I do gf nights at least once a week if not more and do have something planned for next week already. I did this even before this all happened, my gf are my reality and time spent with them makes me a better person and able to handle everything else in my life.
One more time, what H did last night, not coming home, is normal and that's what I was telling myself last night, that just becuase H is home, H isn't really HOME yet.
When I was laying there in bed, on my side of the bed, I couldn't take it so I got up for awhile. Then when I was ready to back to bed I slept on H's side of the bed, which is where I have been sleeping the last six months and amazingly this helped.
I hate that his had to happen, am not really all that surprised, it did bring back lots of memories of when this all started, but last night I KNEW where H was and pre-bomb I didn't have a clue. Last night I kept focusing on myself and son and how far we've come together, did the best I could to put H out of the picture, act as if H wasn't back home and amazingly this helped me fall asleep.
Quote: Something I've been meaning to say, but haven't. There will come a time when he will need to start explaining where he was and what he is doing. He will have to earn your trust again, and there are tools to do that. The Piecing Ladies on the board will be able to help with that too.
How long should I give him? At this point I'm stumped and assume H will need more time..
