Quote: This makes the most sense for now, unconditional love because this is what I feel today. Thought about this last night as I was laying in bed.
Am I being a doormat? I'm doing my damnest to not let him push my buttons, but what does he have to push so hard. I will not pursue H tonight I will not question H tonight
"Kill them with kindness" and stay off his rollercoaster.
... but at the same time you don't want what he is doing disrupt your life either. What about planning an evening out for yourself one weekday next week. Ask him if he wouldn't mind doing you a favor and watch son that evening. This way he won't feel you're trying to spite him for his late nights, but will get the point across that you are not gonna sit around waiting on him and you will continue to live your live no matter what he does. If you can make it turn out to be a late night of fun ... all the better.
I have to thank MAL too for her words this morning for it also spoke to me. I've been feeling stuck for a while now and her words help me see where I need to go from here.
