I agree with you that you contol the power so to speak. You have the added insite to step back an view the situation from a different perspective. Your H only has the view from inside the "pit".
Your in a good spot and I know you'll do great tonight. Hold your head high, smile, and be confident and in control.
You have come so far and really so has H. He has at least turned to look for the door leading back, that you have been holding open for him. Many are still searching for the door.
