Not sure which way to go anymore

[Abbey]

I got excited, even though I told myself not to, because last time H started with a mundane e-mail it turned to an apology and him asking me to take him back.

You're still in expectation mode though, and it's hurting you. He can't give you what you need and want now. I do know how hard it is to detach and not let your hopes jolt into gear.

I wanted to tell him that he made choices and this is one of the consequences, that he could be living with me right now and not have to worry about child support.

But you did. You didn't back down. Not to mention... you did an old salesman's trick. Something gets "said" and the first one to speak...takes control of the situation. Note that he sent you another email back telling you his "feelings". You have something interesting there. He's reached out a little there.

I haven't read your BD yet... more in a bit.

Abbey