I feel like I should clarify more here, too: he was suicidal back in Dec and that's why we got him into therapy. Once there, he got the diagnosis of adjustment disorder for the pregnancy.
In the one day of Marital Counseling we had, he said that yes, he had problems with the pregnancy, but he also didn't want to be with me.
Through his sister I later heard this: He missed me, we were best friends, he loved me, but we both wanted different things in life. I wanted kids and he didn't.
I think that the last one is the closest to the truth.
We have been in light communication since Feb. Just money logistics and then that one "light" email I sent to try to break any ice so he would contact me.
Do I think he will want to be with the baby? I do. I think that it will be HUGE in his life and that he's trying to avoid it, but if he can meet her once and then process his feelings with his therapist, I think he can come to terms with the baby.
But he might not. Right now he goes back and forth. He wants to father her, he wants to just send money.
Then if he does come to love the baby and want to be with her, we would have to look at us. And that may be a whole new hurdle. So I guess I sort of have two hurdles in my sitch.
