Yes - just a sad sad situation. Who knows what makes anyone reach this level of dispair. I'm haunted by the thoughts of it. For the past year we have thought of this happening and I could SO relate. Not in doing it but in knowing how my ex had tried it and always wondering when and if he was going to. I know this is SO hard on my daughter for that reason too. Fortunately I have great friends also. As I am at the cottage - one of my friends went straight to be with my daughter. And one of our mutual friends and her terrific husband went to be with the bereaved family. I did not go home immediately as Josh and I had just started drinking champagne to toast our new boat. It was late, rainy, I was tired and the bit of booze might have been just too much. So I'm heading to be with her in about an hour. Will phone her soon to check on plans. WIll take me a few hours.
We must continue to remind our loved ones that nothing is so bad that there is no way out. For some reason - he figured he was finished financially. He was early 50s, an exec with a quarter million income. No way he was "finished" but he also is deeply in debt and no one could figure out where the money was going. Still - with his earning power unless it was going to loan sharks - what could have made him do this?
I did not sleep well. It will be a very difficult few days.
