Running out of time.

[dwinter82]

CLV, given the circumstances things are not to bad...been better, been worse.

With the ex out of town I am having to juggle quite a bit with the kids; 2 baseball games, a baseball practice, a soccer game and practice, a birthday party and a spring music festival. On top of this work is crazy busy and my 6 month old black lab is driving me nuts. I sware, the dog is either chewing up my hats, humpin' is favorite pillow or licking himself...its like his "things" have been soaking in au juice.

Not complaining, just a lot of stuff and no way to go out and blow off some steam.

Glad to hear you are having a good time with the kids. Take that dating thing nice and slow...

[Cie la vie]

Your plate is full DW. I'm looking forward to the baseball and soccer etc. days but I'm sure it can run you ragged. As for the dog I've been there and done that. Labs are so full of energy it's incredible.

I (actually my XW) rescued the dog that currently resides with me from the pound. Half Chow and Golden R. great dog but man she loved my expensive work shoes. I laid down the hammer one day and she never went near them again.

The funny thing is my XW is the one who wanted the dog and she got it with out consulting me and now she apparently has no interest in her. I guess the dog doesn't fit in with her new single life style. You know the hair and all.

[Cie la vie]

Posting for no other reason than I am bored at work. The only significant milestone of late is yesterday marks what should have been or I guess still is (divorce not yet final) our 15th wedding anniversary. Based on a series of emails I received from the STBXW on Monday she is going to celebrate our anniversary and mothers day with OM out of town (partial speculation).

On the positive side of things I am blessed with having my kids this weekend and look forward to seeing them tonight when I get home.

My STBXW in one of her excessively friendly emails informed me of how hard she is finding it now to have the kids not with her. She also said if you feel this way too you are not alone. She than proceed to extend the offer for me to drop by and see the kids at her place on the weekends she has them. I didn't respond. I have no desire to be around her regardless of the bonus of seeing my kids. It just isn't worth it unfortunately.

This sudden friendliness and accomodating behavior leads me to believe that she is very happy with her current R with OM. I can't help but wonder what the future holds for her and her latest OM. I'd be lying if I said I didn't want her to feel as much or more pain over the loss of our marriage and the thought that she might not have to endure some is distressing to me.

Have a great weekend to all.

[dwinter82]

I find it ironic that she is telling you how hard it is to be away from the kids and then is deciding to be out of town for Mother's Day. Someday she is going to regret these types of actions.

With the kid thing, I am guessing that your W still needs you at some capacity to feel a void...a postive thing, but still very selfish on her part. That void she has will either fade with time and the OM will fill it or the fog will fade and she will figure out the mistake she is making.

Do not try to speculate or think about why she is in a good/happy mood. No reason to think about that stuff.

Have a good weekend buddy!

[ClingingToHope]

Don't make assumptions about her. Perhaps the new R isn't going great and she's feeling friendlier towards you.

Who knows.

Hey, the OM thing is a pain I haven't experienced yet so I can't give you real advice.

What plans do you have for the weekend.

[Cie la vie]

Clinging,

I'm going to get the kids outside both days. The love going for a hike in a park close to my home followed up by a session at a nearby playground. That's Saturday.

Sunday I'll take them to climbing area that they also enjoy a lot. This is great for me as I am able to get a little climbing in while there as well. My son spent an hour trying to catch a lizard last time we went. I loved watching his excitement as he chased around a rock. He kept telling me he was going to tickle it. That tickled me.

I'd like to take them to the zoo but I just can't handle that on my own. I'm afraid I lose one or both of them.

Don't make assumptions about her.

I try not to but...

How are things going for you CTH? I haven't ventured to far from separated for sometime. Feel like I'm running out of steam as my sitch has a pretty defined path with little likelihood of any change either way. Hope you're doing as well as can be expected.

[Cie la vie]

Ironic indeed DW. You are not the only to have made a similiar observation.

Selfish behavior has been her calling card since the SHTF.

That void she has will either fade with time and the OM will fill it or the fog will fade and she will figure out the mistake she is making

I'm speculating again and I suspect the void will fade away before she admits to having made any mistake.

It's funny I tend speculate the days following a crappy night sleep. I guess I'm not as strong mentally without my 7 hours.

You do the same with your weekend DW.

[dwinter82]

CLV, how is everything going?

Better on my end...

[Cie la vie]

Not a whole lot to report DW. The kids were with my former W over the weekend. I did a poor job of taking advantage of the free time. Really didn't do anything productive. I'm a little pissed at myself over this.

I spoke with my lawyer last week for about 30 minutes and went over a portion of the settlement agreement. She didn't have any real issues other than she thought some of it was fluffy and not enforceable. I want to get this damn thing done so it isn't hanging over my head anymore. I need to get the friggen house on the market as well. Can't wait to have all the loose ends taken care of so I can truly move on with my life.

My W continued her email barrage for a couple days last week until I failed to respond to one of them and it abruptly ended. I think she got the hint that I'm not interested in being her buddy old pal. The barrage was related to the fact that I am taking the kids on a week vacation in early June to my home town in NorCal. She got the news thru our nanny (which is how I planned it) and wanted to be "kept in the loop". Not an unreasonable request.

Anyway that is it on my end.

Good to here things are better on your end as well. Do tell how.

[dwinter82]

CLV, I think time and GAL'ing are the things that are helping the most. Although I can still get pretty emotional when I think about things, those emotions are slowly fading with time. I have been hanging out with a group of people the past couple of months and that has really helped. I met a woman who just went through a divorce and we have been texting, hanging out, talking, etc. and just having fun. Nothing romantic going on. Being with this group of people is really starting to make me feel human again, and not just some lost soul.

I would do whatever you can to get out and meet some people...