H has always been like this, says stupid things like that or is condescending. H's words and actions have never matched..I have to keep reminding myself of that. And, I also think he's trying to get a rise out of me, control me, whatever it is he thinks he's doing. H doesn't think I can change because if I don't change then H won't change so H is trying to trip me up.
I won't let him either. It's going to take time and more time. I'll be weighing everything and watching closely just like H is weighing everything and watching closely. H is really insecure and has low self esteem. If H does decide to bolt again, it might just be the end.
