Thanks, all, for your good wishes. They definitely helped.
Signed a bunch of papers in the comfort of MY own home.
Tore my heart out to read the "Quitclaim." Howled and wailed for a time after the lawyer left.
Then--I had my therapist, which was good. Then, to the bar with friends, which was good. Then, a ten mile run this am, which was good. Then, closed the joint bank account. Which hurt, too, but it is what it is.
Didn't sleep well--tried to go to sleep without the anti-a meds. Woke up from a tossing turning dream/nightmare about HER!! going back on the meds tonight! But my therapist did say that drinking/drugging myself so much wasn't allowing for REM/dream state, and that is part of the healing. Christ, if I have to let HER or X into my dreams to get past this...well, when I woke up in the sweaty tangle, I took an anti-a to get back to sleep. So I guess that is always an option.
Thanks again for checking in. I'll keep you posted.
