Mish...you are stronger than you think. And you deserve answers to your questions.

I know you want to put your R back together, and it sounds like you are on the right track. So lets look at some ways to address your questions without coming off like you are accusing (not that you do, but you do want to avoid that at all costs).

Think of some ways you can ask the questions using "I feel" etc...

List them, and lets see what you got!

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..