What else could I have done, other than what I have?
Nothing. You can't change the past. When you can look in the mirror and say I tried my best then you are a success.
Knowing what you know now, what kind of man are you going to be? This is how you survive and thrive in this turmoil. You are a changed man for the better Antlers. I can't imagine the pain you are feeling. Just know it won't last forever and that you are loved and appreciated in this world.
Strength and Honor Coach
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.