Going straight forward...antlers 6th thread.

[antlers]

I hate this. Mountains of legal paperwork. Intimidating and scary legal proceedings. Financial burdens never known before. Children that are in turmoil. Children being used as weapons against the other parent. A family torn apart. Hopes and dreams for the future shattered. And utter rejection and hatred from someone whom you thought you would spend the rest of your life with.

That's my life right now.

I feel a lot of stress. I'm doing the best I can. It hurts.

I wish things weren't this way...but they are. I wish the past wasn't what it was...but it is.

It still bothers me to no end that I was the way that I was. And it has cost me dearly. Given that, what else could I have done, after the fact? I've had true remorse, I repented, I shouldered what I had done, I apologized profusely, I tried to make amends and atone, I asked for forgiveness...and I changed.

What else could I have done, other than what I have?