Looking for help with WAW

[mza8]

Gucci, I agree with you on everything you said except that I lied and misled anyone here. I will emphatically let you know that I have been nothing but completely honest here. What reason would I have to lie to the people here who are trying to help me? Gucci, you're wrong on this one, I need to let you know that. I have a lot of respect for you but you're painting me to be someone I'm not and that is a liar or manipulator. I take acception to being accused of this.

When have I lied ot misled? Just because today I said that I sent my W three sets of flowers? If I remember correctly I said that I sent her flowers, I never said if it was one set, three sets or fifty sets of flowers. What difference would that have made anyway? The bottom line was that it was pursuit no matter how many flowers I sent her. If I wanted to lie about it I certainly wouldn't have shared today that I sent three sets of flowers. I feel like I've been an open book. I've always been an open book with people and maybe that hasn't always been a good thing. It's just how I am. I never pick and choose what information I share. I'm about as honest of a person as they come. Look at the majority of my posts. I write short books sometimes because I want to share all of the information. I'd like to move past this issue because I agree with everything else you said to me and I'm on board with your advice and NC. Just wanted to clear that up.

Gucci, getting back to my sitch, you're right. I see how the flowers erased any potential progress and put me back at square one. Yes, no doubt, I have some ground to make-up and a lot more work to do. I'm not giving up on my W and my M.

Yes, I can now see how all of those flowers made her feel uncomfortable and in a way, "stalking". Obviously that was not my intent. Your logic makes perfect sense that by not sending her anything she might have wondered why. Yes, I blew a good opportunity to show her a different side of me. Trust me, I've beaten myself up about it for the past several days.

As I said, I'm on board now. Yep, it took me long enough to get here but the point is I'm here now. I read back over the last couple of weeks of my posts. One word...pathetic. Very weak, needy and not very attractive. Made my stomach churn to read it. Who in the hell was that guy, I wondered. That's not the guy I remembered. That guy was unattractive to me. I can see how that guy would be very unattractive to my W.

Stick with me Gucci.