Just some thoughts...I just DON'T want to get back into counseling again. It's so boring--listening to H say all kinds of terrible things about me. It takes a while for the C to "see" him, and in the meantime...once again I hear how I am the reason he is so miserable.
The last guy was so great in a way--he agreed to everything I wanted in my M. Said my kitchen would be done in 6 months. (not). Told my H to let me go on a vacation with my S on my own, since H is doing it (not). Said since we both enjoyed (a certain sport) H should buy me better equipment. It's very expensive, but C told him I'd research it, bring him my findings and then we would develop a budget for it. Yeah, I don't see that happening either.
A funny thing about when I told H the other day about the feelings I developed for the counselor, he said "But you hated the guy". (I didn't like him much at first) I was like--what was there to hate about him? He gave me everything I wanted. H said, "yeah, and I put a stop to that." I said, well, that is how I developed feelings for SOMEONE ELSE. That put a very weird look on H's face.
