Time for darkness.... (thread number 3)ears open

[james217]

Until you really understand what no contact is about and how it will help YOUR life there is nothing more to really say.

No contact is not a tactic to fix your marriage. No contact is a way for you to get your own sh*t together and sort of step back and reevaluate what you need to do for you and the betterment of your present and future. And right now your WAW can't be a part of that.

It will take weeks for her AD's to kick in and months of C'ing before anything can happen FOR HER.

I feel like you are back to square one.

I'm learning C.G. This diabetes is kicking my butt. I'm trying to fix it.

I've actually been reflecting alot today. Thinking about things I need/want to do.

Losing the job really lowered my confidence level. I liked the job alot.

I'm going to set up all these doctors appointments now that I'm not working.

Alot of people from my training class have emailed or called saying how it's not the same without me.

They mailed me a birthday card. I hope I get it soon.

ALot of people were really mad because they wanted me to stay and be in the next training class. That made me feel good.

Me and WAW have agreed C.G. She's trying to fix things and so am I. We have had some good memories and some not so good. But we're both realizing we need alot of things fixed individually before we can fix our R or M. thats even if it can be fixed. So we're going to chill out on alot of things. It goes back and forth. Good day bad day. Good date bad encounter. It's a loophole that is going to stop. The only way to stop it is by working on our individual issues. We took steps back but I think we're taking steps forward too.

So I'm trying to fix my things she'll fix hers.

I gave it my best shot with the job. I cannot be too sad about it.

I'm just going to keep on working on things with me and bettering myself because I don't like the direction I've turned again.

Time for a self 180.