This is just to unreal, I just can't believe it. H shows up about one o'clock this morning, he turns on the light in the bedroom says you are you awake? I said yes I am now. At first I thought he was drunk, but he was completely sober, I mean to show at 1 am is a little out of the ordinary.
H said how come you haven't been answering the phone? I said oh it's still hooked up to the computer, so it doesn't ring. H says "do you want me to move back home" I said "Yes" H says "why?" I say "becuase I love you" H says well come and help me move my s*** back in. He had a load in the back of his pick up truck. As we're moving stuff he looks at me at one point and says "you know there are no guarantees" I said something like yes there are no guarantees in life.
Is this unreal or what? We didn't talk a whole lot, I just didn't know what to say at all, we did ML. He again said something about no guarantees, I said well I hope you give me more warning this time. H said I told him to move out, I said you didn't have to go. My mind was all over the place for the longest time, it took me awhile to fall back to sleep.
He did ask if S asked about him, what I told him, I said nothing, S just knows you'll be around sooner or later, but S always says "when will daddy be home" I also said S is young, they're like that at that age, can forget.
Anyway, so here I sit this morning, cautiously happy, and wondering what I do now, OMG H is back home!
When I couldn't sleep I was thinking I have to tell this person, this person...it was almost the same feeling I had when H asked me to marry him.
I'm scared and very, very happy, and then get cautiously happy--like is this real? But there's a lot of his stuff on the floor in the living room. I guess I'm OFFICIALLY PIECING. I'll have to think of a new screen name also, leftandnowhy has to go..
Do I just follow his lead for now and not bring anything up about OW, H still has more stuff there? I'm not sure I know what to do at this point, my head is spinning, but I'm happy, soo soo happy right now.
