WAW still around, DBing starting to work

[gutwrenching]

Last night, I got the "I want a D", I've made my decision. This was after W initiated a talk, said we had to talk because we aren't finding a place to live because we don't know what we are doing. I stayed calm, told her I was still fighting for M, but enough was enough, if she was going to quit, I was going to let her go and move on with my life.

At the end, I said so have you made your decision. She said yes, I want the D. I said ok, I'll start splitting accounts, liquidating assets, and a few other things. She immediately starts crying says stop, please don't, let this sink in for a couple of days to make sure this is what I want.

Lots of crying from her last night. I stayed strong, showed almost no emotions. Handled it better than I thought I ever would, until...until in bed a little later. She asked me if she should sleep in guest room. I said I'm not kicking you out of the bed, but I don't care where you sleep. Little bit later, lots of crying and I let myself give in and held her and we ended up falling asleep with me holding her and her laying on me. And at one point, she had a chance to break free and did not, continued to lay her head on me.

This morning was cordial getting ready for work. Since then, have had no contact. Don't know what tonight will bring.

This sucks.