So I will do my best to stop initiating conversation. I know he will feel something is wrong when I do this. I have known about the Jeep, in fact I encouraged him to get it. I have even had to tell him he does not answer to me. He has the habit of telling me where he is going if he will be coming home or not. I never ask. I at least did learn that spying on someone does not really do any good from my first marriage. I find alot of hope in the fact that many times he will speak about us in future tense. Of course with the situation the way it is I feel very insecure about any comments made right now. I realize the focus is about me, but sometimes you just need to get through the past to move forward. It sort of like talking about someone who just died. The situation is so new that you can hardly help yourself.
