Can you see the Morning After

[psluke]

Good Morning Deb,

I noticed you weren't on here yesterday! Was a bit concerned about you so glad you are all right

Yes, IT'S WEDNESDAY!!!



Hi PIB,

Yes, lots of weekends we have no contact at all, sometimes even on his three day weekends we don't have any contact at all.

I don't initiate all of the contact but I do a lot of it.

Actually I can't tell any difference when I go all weekend in not talking to him or I talk to or see him over the weekend, it doesn't seem to affect him one way or the other.

Of course this is my ASSumption as he doesn't say one way or the other but if I tell him good morning and he doesn't respond or is short I assume he is busy and don't contact him again unless he offers a return message. Sort of I initiate but then let him control the flow or frequency of contact.

I am still kicking around the idea of trying to move on without David. If I do that I will definitely stop contacting him. Actually I am not planning on contacting him today if I can manage that all day.

I really still don't understand the two friends, if they were David's friends and not mine from before the marriage that would be different but these were probably my two longest term friendships. Not a recent friendship or a shallow one. Or at least so I thought. I have been through a lot with both girls. Some very trying times in all of our lives. That is why I think this hurts so bad. Both of them know me well enough to know how bad losing David would hurt me. What I don't understand is why they wanted to hurt me?

Thank you that you still love me! That helps.