Time for darkness.... (thread number 3)ears open

[james217]

well i have filled out some forms. Getting some things done. As I stated, WAW was released from hospital today. She's mad and hurt by me having her put in there. I did not know the procedure would be for them to cuff her and take her away.

She said she's done. I saw her earlier. I gave her back her cellphone and gave her the weekly allowance as promised.

WAW stated she's done. She said she's tired of us argueing. I agreed and validated. She said she knows my intentions are good. She sees me trying to change but she can't deal with it anymore. I validated but was sad.

She went into her place. Then came out. She saw the tears on my face. I was taking my stuff and leaving and she said she knows I didn't mean to hurt her.

I stated that lately she only sees the bad things that occur. Whenever we have a positive date or encounter or phone call she overlooks those because of the bad things.

She stated that she can only see that right now even though the good moments have been special to her.

I stated for her to not give up on us. That we both do not know how to deal with the stress and emotions we have.

WAW told me she is getting an ANTIDEPRESSANT AND HAS COUNSELING ON MONDAY!

she told me I needed to do the same and right now she's not ready for a relationship and we need to get ourselves together.

I'm realizing that I'm not sound mentally emotionally and physically right now. I need to fix some things before me and WAW can totally resolve our issues

like you guys have stated the flowers, cards, dates, and everything are nice surface things but we need to find out what is going on under the surface and dig deep to resolve those issues.

I asked her why she is so angry with me alot she said she doesn't even know she just has all of this rage.

I told her I would give her alot more space. She told me to email her or call her when I got home cause she wanted to talk to me about what we were talking about when I left and came home.

I didn't stay long. I wanted her to have her space. She needs time I need time. But she is going to counseling next monday. I hugged her and smiled.

she also got her job back from earlier this month. She told me how she wanted to sing and go back to college.

We have moments of clarity openedness and honesty but there's alot to be done.

We both admitted we have problems that need counseling. So that's good.

I only wish she could stop her A's

waw did comment on my weight loss (she noticed) and my new clothes.

I think we may be ok but only time will tell.