What about getting married in the "church", but not by the state - is that at all possible?
Sure that's possible - if you think about it, that's what the gay community has done for a long time. I'd like to see that conversation though, where you try to talk your bride-to-be into being "married" but not married.
FWIW, it's not the women's fault. Sometimes life sucks. Bigger picture, there's a lot of sucky circumstances that challange us. We've got to pick ourselves up and be responsible for ourselves, how we cope.
I'm definitely crashing this week. I'm not sure if posting helps me, or helps me dig the hole. Have that tired, distracted, anxious feeling.
Funny, observing myself, I seem to have some control over the big swings with what I'm doing - generally push myself up with the postitive things I do. But when the bottom drops out rapidly, seems like I just have to ride it out. I have a sense that there is more I could do with more discipined thinking, that there is some indulgence in letting it happen, but I don't quite have my hands on the mental controls for it.