feel like giving up - pt 2

[luvless]

Gardener - keep lurkin' and keep prayin' !!! I need it....thank you.

LSG - You're constantly stopping by with support and I appreciate it. I will try to stay calm it's so hard! I guess I'm just tired of getting bent over without any KY ya know?

I want to keep dignified...unlike Mr. Luv who has thrown his family to the curb. He came by yesterday to pick up his car. I wasn't home but the kids were clearly home as my son's car was in the driveway. He did not even bother to tell them to come outside so he can see them or give them a hug. Do you know what it must have been like for S19 to see his dad drive away (cuz he did) and not even acknowledge anyone at the time? He has been gone for so long. I feel so bad for my kids.

Ok...so Mr. Luv calls S19 a whole 15 mins later to say he picked up the car but still. There is no restraining order against him. He could have seen the kids or said come meet me at a restaurant so we can talk and I'll buy you guys dinner. I find it terribly heartbreaking for my kids...what they must think of their dad. He buys them things but is completely absent from their lives!

I have to pack up his things today. I am pretty sick with a cold and I hope to have a stoic attitude while clearing out his closet. I don't want to cry. He isn't sad about coming to take them out of here so why do I bother being so upset?

Thanks for listening.

Luv