[/quote] but I simply don't see me ever not caring - regardless of what she did. I think the "healing" part for me is recognizing this and knowing that it doesn't mean I want her back and that I am ready to truly move on in my life.

BA [/quote]

I really had to take a minute to ponder this statement, because I think that is exactly how I feel, but couldn't quite put it to words.

One thing I really just realized I was doing was still worrying about what everyone else thinks. I am divorced so I should be dating. I should be getting out there. I should I should I shoud.


And it really occurs to me that I honestly do not have to answer to anyone. Just because I have not jumped into another relationship doesn not mean that that I am still holding out hope that the SG will cchange. But its not even that. I don't really think about it anymore.

For the longest time I have kind of been a hermit because I am so tired of answering questions that frankly I dont want to answer. I like my solitary time. I am not much of aparty animal.

So now, I know I need to bet more active, and I really have to figure out what I like to do.

Huh...

Ramgling...

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..