It does feel good. But sometimes I still miss the person I married, before he became the SG. I suppose I always will. It is still funny, though, that the bounce back from hearing from him is faster these days. I don't think of him now more than I do. I remember wishing for the day that an entire day would go by without me thinking about him, and although its not that close yet, its getting pretty close. I have so much more out of my life now that it makes me wonder why I married him in the first place.
I have grown so much, become more aware of what I want. What my needs are. That is not to say that I cannot appreciate someone elses, but I can appreciate my own. I have become more cautious, and learned to listen to my inner voice.
But sometimes, wistfully, I still wish that this person I married would miraculously (sp???) reappear. I know that won't happen, or that the odds of it are very slim. And honestly, I am not even sure it would make a difference now. Most of the time I think that things would not change, the very thing he said to me, and that I would end up going through the very same thing in a year or two. I am not a glutton for punishment. I will not put myself, nor the Tween, through that again.
In the long run, I really don't think it is worth it.
But sometimes, I still miss him.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
