The countdown continues

[Awoken]

small update:

I spoke with my lawyer yesterday. She told me that my W's lawyer expressed frustration with my W, saying that she doesn't appear to know what she wants in the divorce agreement and is confused.
My W has been telling me (via email) that she hasn't been able to reach her lawyer at all. It's looking like there won't be enough time to close on the refinance before my rate lock expires, and then I may no longer qualify.

Last night at 2am, I wake up to my beeping cell phone. W has sent a text message saying "I really miss you, and I'm so sorry".
She still has power to pull my thoughts/heart back in and I found myself all morning thinking what if she wants to pull out of the divorce?

Right now, I've decided not to respond to her text at all. After some weak moments, I realize there is little point to hoping for a marriage that is dead, hoping for a woman that treats me this way. It's hard, because I am still grieving for the destruction of my family the way it was.

Any thoughts, friends?

It's again odd, and predictable. I thought I was well on my way to move forward, and once again I'm pulled back.