I am sorry to hear that. My suggestion for now is to read everything that has been given to you here.
You must undetsand very quickly that all this stuff he is doing he is doing because he feels extreme conflict and pain inside. His choices are not about you and you cannot control them. He will blame you and use a lot of other excuses for his choices and he will look a lot of different places to find solace (19 y/o) but until he begins to look within he will be in the tunnel of MLC.
You have to take care of you and your family. The best way to do that is to detach from him. Here is the link:
You have to let him go for now. I don't mean give up on him, or your M that is not what detachment is. It is a healthy place for you to weather the storm.
As an LBS you are probably feeling the lowest you have ever felt in your life. It is a huge blow to your self esteem and sends you into a tailspin. What we tell you here works and it is the only path that works.
We have all stood where you stand right now.
You are not alone...
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am
