I'm starting a new one simply because I am shedding any negativity from my life and moving on up to the positive life entirely!
I'm still not sure H is in MLC or not, but I've committed to detaching entirely and bettering myself. It will be hard as I seem to still be in anger stage with him. Trying hard to release, and usually am doing well, but occasionally will find myself day dreaming of hurting him, rejecting him WHEN he comes back to me, etc. (You see, I now know he will come back to me b/c I will be so AWEsome at that point, but by then, who knows if I will want him. I'm a little afraid of that, actually.)
Reposting my commitments to myself on this new thread so it doesn't get buried: Restoration of ME: 1. Joining gym (used to be very into working out) 2. Eating healthier (been eating junk for too long b/c I eat differently than the rest of family so it's too hard to make two meals) 3. Going on several solo (with dog/s) vacations this year to paint and hike 4. Beginning to play guitar again 5. Taking voice lessons - ALWAYS wanted to do it 6. Painting/drawing again 7. Already began today to write poetry/lyrics. I don't have anything but a brainstorming paper right now, but I'll get there. 8. Cutting my hair, it's down past my butt - getting it styled 9. Going tanning - I'm TOO white 10. Gaining control of my finances, even though it's probably too late to stop the bankruptcy 11. Finding friends (how does one go about doing this?) 12. Taking midnight walks under the stars and in the woods and sleeping out under the stars more 13. Taking karate classes 14. Getting braces to correct one tooth that is crooked, probably whitening my teeth also.
Announcement: Number one CROSSED OFF the list already. The gym was running a special for people at my workplace for $20 a month, so I joined. It's half price from their regular membership, and it's walking distance from my work.
I'm going to be doing the Muscle & Fitness 90 day Rock Hard Challenge. It's an older challenge they ran, but it was so good and I got into shape so quickly before using it. Of course, I was 10 years younger then. LOL.
