You got me again on that last one Steady. By the way, you're correct about knowing I did everything I could no matter what the outcome.
My C and I were talking about that last week. I have changed so much and feel so good about me that I know I'll be ok. Of course my desire is to repair and rebuild my M, but if I can't I will feel good about everything I've done.
I know I'm a better person today than i was before this started. Everyday I get tested by my W or some other situation. I see how much differently I handle it, and I feel pretty good. Like setting down boundaries with my W the past few days. before I would have just been an ass and not gotten my point across the right way.
Everyday brings a new test and a new challenge. I accept it and I'm always ready for it. I'll just continue to grow and improve. I hope she finds her way soon, not just for me and the kids, but for her most importantly. I've got the kids well taken care of, but they need their mom emotionally stable.
I don't plan to veer off the path. Too much positive on my part has happened for me to change course.
Married 18 Me 39 W 37 D 15 D 5 Divorce Filed 8 April 2010 Beginning of Reconcile 8 Sept