WH has been nice to me lately, talks a lot about reconciling, helps with the garden when he comes in, etc etc etc. Thinks his job may be in jeapordy. Says he can work from my city, maybe, or will find a job out here, maybe.
But THEN, when I start being nice, he keeps trying to convince me that he should keep his own place in his city, his own lifestyle, and of course most of the income (one for all - he works for us; and all for one - we should support HIS needs).
Keeps decorating his apartment, designer furniture. The whole place is like that, he keeps using money that should go to the family (if he really friggin cared about us like he says he does), but no, it goes towards making him look like rich big city guy.
He gels his hair, wants a tatoo. Thinks he's "Jason Stackhouse" the 20-something handsome dude from the series "True Blood" (he’s 40’s and not!)
He tries to tell me that he needs to be in his city to work, and I need to be in my city to work - that's why we are in 2 cities. Bull. We are in 2 cities because he left us in a sold house.
I was so frustrated that tonight I told him so (paragraph above) and he called me "impossible" and then stormed out and drove away.
Now says he's trying to make it work, by denying him a place to live near work in his city -- I am proving that our relationship doesn't work. All my fault. And no, we can't live in his city with him because the kids and I are better off in my city (sort of true, but not the point, why should I live on my own and rasie the kids as a single parent?!!).
He keeps trying to get me to fool around with him, and I say not until he gets testing done to prove he doesn't have something, and he says he doesn't need to because he's never ever been with anyone except me (not true and this is so frustrating already).
He keeps doing this to me over and over and over and over and over and over and over again.
I am basically invisible to his friends and family and coworkers, who believe he has moved on, not keeps trying to "date" me.
He goes to all these shows and events in his big city, all week long, then comes to my city saying all he cares about is us.
He keeps drawing me in over and over saying this time it will be different. The kids believe him, want to believe him, he is their Dad. They don't understand what he is doing to me, and why I get upset.
