still separated, headed for D?

[newmama]

Here is how it went when WH dropped off S:

He didn't knock. He entered the house saying Hello loudly. I was thrilled to see S and took him from his arms. He bought a faucet cover for the bathtub- a fireman duck. I said thank you. He needed to use the bathroom. I start playing with S and when he came out he leaned against the wall watching and asking some q's. I answered but not with enthusiasm. I realized he wasn't going to leave any second soon so I scooped up S and walked toward the door and started playing with him near the door. WH walked down the hall and was making small talk about the weather. I just said "yeah." Then I said "ok, say bye bye to daddy! We'll see you tomorrow in the parking lot!" He quietly said bye and left.

I was annoyed because he was testing me again wasn't he? I really don't want to have to have a discussion with him about my boundaries and asking him to please just drop off S and go.

I don't want to have to tell him that it pains me to see him- I want him to not know how hurt I am. Confusing. Hopefully I can just be consistent and stay by the door from now on, kind of standing there, waiting for him to leave.

Another thing to talk to my therapist- thank God I am seeing him.
I will share what he says of course....