Not sure which way to go anymore

[Mystik]

This is hitting me so hard this week. I keep finding myself thinking about what should be happening. H should be living here by now, he should be helping me get DS settled in to bed at night, he should be helping me with picking up, doing the dishes together at night. Instead I'm still alone. And none of that stuff is getting done.

Logically I know that I'll get through all this, but emotionally I wonder. I feel like this is going to break me.