About Ready To Throw In The Towel

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Well I was finally served papers today. Got a txt from W tonite stating that she had papers for me. I stopped at house to pick them up. W ment me at the door, signed the acceptance of service copy and handed back to her. W was not angry. Very corgal. She was very quiet and withdrawn. Look kind of depressed. She stated that I had so many days to respond. I just said ok and left. I was pretty withdrawn and quiet my self.

I am sad but in away I am sort of relieved. I was really getting tired of being in limbo. Now I know what direction our marriage is finally going. Still don't quite understand why she wants this, probably will never fully understand. I do love her very much. She does have alot of issues with herself that she is still trying to work through. I know that I take ownership in this as well. It does take two.

When this day came I thought I would be a wreck. I am actually doing pretty good. No crying yet. Maybe later. I had bought W mothers day card. Nothing mushy. Just stating how wonderful of a mom she is. We have had very little comunication lately. Sort of wanted to test the waters. Maybe I won't send the card now.