Those feelings of running away are just that feelings and I can choose not to feel them, it has just been overwhelming to the point that I can't stop right now.
Hey Aces, umm... I'm gonna get girlie and talk 'feelings' on you here... sorry but I wanted to share this. Be careful about trying to stuff or 'think' feelings away. I tried to do that in my marriage for years - trust me - it doesn't work. I found, and my IC agrees, that trying to think them away tends to just make them come at you with a vengance. Ironically, I think the best thing to do if you want them to go away is to simply notice them. Feelings exist for a purpose; they're trying to tell you something - maybe not something literal, but there's likely a message there. Write about them. Just let them be there, take a moment to be still and quiet, and observe them. See what comes to your mind when you 'confront' them like that.
I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.
