She's told our friends. She's told her parents. Most people know now.
I'm now getting emails and messages from all corners of the globe asking/demanding an explanation.
... but how can I explain what *I* don't understand?
She hasn't changed her mind, not 1 iota... but she does hope that I can "find a way to be OK with this".
I've told her some of the things I've been up to... it's a hard line to walk, doing a 180 and not point out the differences, but still finding a way for her to notice (not that I'm doing it for her to notice... but do you know what I mean??).
She's been doing nothing... at least she tells me she's been doing nothing. I don't know what to believe anymore.
She tells me that Weds she is "going out" with a male friend of hers... which made me question internally what she meant... but I held my tongue.
She's also going out Thurs drinking with a girl friend. It feels like she's got back this life that she's been desperately after.
I've been going out loads, mainly just to try and keep busy... but I'm feeling very lost.
She's gone quiet now for another week. I feel like emailing her and just talking - we ran out of time yesterday - but i know that's not conducive to her missing me. I just miss her so badly. I've lost my best friend along with my lover and my wife.
She said her dad was getting really worried about me snapping at her and turning in how I deal with this situation - So I have sent him an email, explaining how sorry I am that things have taken this turn.
Me: 29 H: 25 T:7yrs M:5yrs
Bomb: 23/04/10
Had no idea anything was wrong. Cheated so she could end it without talking.
