I really cannot discuss this with anyone in my family due to the fact that they will all tell me I am crazy for trying to stick this out. It does feel good to tell my story and get it all out. Since it is so new it is very hard for me to focus on anything else but this right now. So far it has not hurt my job or anything. There are really many signs that my H does hold some sort of hope for our M but I am extremely cautious. He really like to talk to me about his job and other things and I respectfully listen. It is very difficult when he leaves and doesn't come home. I do not ask what he does or where he goes but he tells me anyway. Right now he is saying that he is at a place of weakness and needs a relationship with himself. He of course tells me that he is not happy and he loves me and I am his best friend but he does not love me the way he should love a wife. I have been using some of the DBing and they seem to have some effect but I have also been pursuing him in some ways and he is open to this but I wonder if I should change this.
