Can you see the Morning After

[psluke]

Hi Shiny,

Actually I didn't hit him with the suggestion that morning it was when he called back that afternoon to tell me he was feeling better.

I feel he does this sort of thing a lot, but he does do it to other people as well, so I think what I have to do is just accept that is the way he is and not to take it personally. As I KNOW he does it to his family as well.

He also indicated on Friday that he was going to try to come over today, but I didn't hear anything from him today at all.

Didn't do bad today. Had some down spells in the afternoon, as I kept thinking he would come over but picked back up and overall descent day.

I guess calling and letting me know if he was or wasn't planning on coming over might lead to him feeling controlled if he felt he needed to let me know. I just feel it is the polite thing to do, but like I said his family is very proper and he was raised very prim and proper, I'm afraid us girls pretty much run wild. Not on the town or anything but we spent most of our time in the barn or on our ponies. So he would have a much better idea of what is proper or polite than I would. But he does that and he also a lot of times won't answer at all when I am talking to him or he says "Huh" like what is that supposed to mean? Ok, enough venting!

I think I will just drop it, I was upset when I posted and I don't want him to feel controlled.

He doesn't answer my emails. I had hoped that might be an effective way for us to communicate but it doesn't work that way.

That is the thing about where we are right now there is no good way for us to talk, we do the joking short little things on IM, but he doesn't call after work hours, doesn't answer emails and doesn't come over very often. So how are we supposed to do any interacting?

I guess the answer at this time is he isn't where he wants to do any interacting and I just need to get over it.

I would not think he would worry about a long conversation on the phone as generally we have pretty short phone conversations when we do have one.

I guess I was just venting some frustration about a habit of his that bothers me!


Positives:

1. Got some of the things on my list done. Some I didn't as I did different things, but the positive part is I did get some stuff done. Didn't sit in front of the computer the whole weekend!

2. Read a book yesterday evening and finished after grocery this morning. Very relaxing.

3. The shelties are great snuggle bugs if you want to take a nap on the sofa. If he can Frostbyte likes to lay on top of me.

4. Felt happy inside again this morning and PMA wasn't too bad for part of the day.

5. Didn't get that have to get home feeling while at the grocery this morning.

6. Got the sheltie nails and hair on feet trimmed and FB was a little angel, used to I had to have David help hold him still. Maybe because he is spending so much time with me now he trusts me a bit more to do his nails. He was still very nervous but didn't move at all. Little feet pads were sweating some by the time I finished.

7. I think the smell is mostly gone now!!!!!!!

8. I got enough things done in the house that it feels a bit better to walk into again!

9. Breeze is eating pretty good right now.

10. I am feeling like I want to keep grooming on the shelties, hope that lasts! They need ears cleaned and trimmed, teeth cleaned and actually everyone could use a bath just for good measure.