where he's back to being super nice and tender again (he'd been withdrawing for the last few weeks after telling his family).
Stay the course, keep doing what you're doing.
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i've been having all these thoughts/doubts of if it's an MLC or not b/c some stuff is so classic and then other stuff isn't. i mean who knows, maybe he really is just a WAS who was really hurt in our rel'p and just disconnected. maybe he's just so depressed he can't see beyond his depression. maybe i can say maybe, maybe, maybe until i just go nuts!
Does it really matter what you call it? Just plain effing crazy if you ask me.
Keep making this about you.
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ultimately i need to focus on myself and stop thinking of him but i really feel like something so good is being thrown away. i can imagine you all shaking your head at me right now...like "she just doesn't get it, does she?" and the truth is, i don't! i have been praying a lot on this and i want to accept what is ultimately best for me (but clearly i'm in denial).
What's written in bold tells me you get it.
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so "trying" to detach but it's not there emotionally. physically though, i am spending time with friends, doing some things for me, and planned an extended trip to europe this summer post D.
Give it time. Good for you as far as the trip goes!!
