I totally get the desire to run away. Your W may have noticed this, too without realizing that she is part of the reason you feel that way.
Has your IC suggested a way to balance your feelings (reality vs self-blame?) You're going through a lot of tough emotions so your feelings are quite natural - getting down on yourself or giving up to avoid pain might not be helpful.
Good luck, man. Get through today and make it the happiest you can honestly do. There's an Islamic belief that God never gives a trial to someone greater than they can bear. Think about it this way...if you are going through this trial or 'punishment' for past sins, you CAN bear it. You ARE strong enough.
I don't think she has noticed, I tend to play it calm whenever she is around and I don't talk to her about anything other than the kids(if she asks about them) or mundane things. Those feelings of running away are just that feelings and I can choose not to feel them, it has just been overwhelming to the point that I can't stop right now.
I haven't been to IC in two weeks, but when I make my next appointment I will ask her.
I know God will not give me more than I can bare but damn he is laying it on pretty heavy right now.
thanks OTMT
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I like all this empty space because i can now type out things that are important.
Like: D7 S2 starting swimming lessons on 3/30
"Readily will I display the intestinal fortidue required to fight on..."
