Hmmm...what's up with that? apparently she knows what she wants (or thinks she does) but she won't tell you? because she wants to play games?
No - completely different. I told her what I thought, that I needed to step away from her, and she is trying to be respectful of that - of NOT saying that she wants to be friends. Essentially, she's saying she's not going to ask for what she wants because that's crossing the boundary I set in the conversation.
Bill, yeah, I'm in sync with you, but just having a moment I'm going to read your post again and respond. Yes, there is no definitive answer of I have to be this way or that way. It is true, what I really need and want to do is to get everything steady and be effective as a parent, at work, etc. And I'm pulling it off I think. But on the other hand, I'm trying to cope real-time with what I feel, and for the past week or two I've felt a lot better with trying to distance. It's not an intent to cut her out, or to send a message, or to be mean, or whatever, it's just the corner of this space that I found to sit in for awhile that seemed to work for awhile. With this relationship now I don't have a plan or an expectation or a vision, I'm just trying to navigate, and I guess LEARN what works right. And yeah it's all clouded by the muck that I can't seem to consistantly look above.
OK more later - work is calling my name. Thanks guys.
