It seems like the best thing I can do is focus on our friendship for now and stay away from any R talk. When we talked R on Sunday she said it was only pushing her away. The fact that she basically moved up the decision date worries me. I'm not sure how to buy more time on that one. She seems very driven to get this over with. And it doesn't seem like she has completely thought it through, more like it just seems easier and will take less energy for her to D than try and trust again. I have let her down so many times
