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[awest1217]

A lot of busyness at work. This is always the week I love and hate at the same time because it is so much fun to really have students who have done poorly get what we are doing finally and also crazy because I have a lot of grade and do everyday during class.

On the H front, that is kind of funny yet I don't know how to put it. Last night I asked H something financial stuff about the few things we still do share (the cell phone, the house phone because it is in his name, and the car which is in both of our names, but through his bank so I don't have access to it). I mostly wanted to start paying everything online and find out what is left to pay on teh car. Some is to "go gree", the car is so I have those numbers for the L next month. H freaked out. He started to go on and on about how I am trying to push him away because I don't want to have things in common anymore (I had mentioned how it would be so much easier if at least the cell bill was separate instead of family. The rest is ok because I get the bill and can ask H when I want to know about the balance on teh car, but the cell bill kills me that it is still joined and hurts me when I see how many texts he sends to OW and calls OW every month). He just said how he is glad we have stuff in common and I should be open if I am trying to get rid of him. I said right now I am not, but I am trying to make my life easier. It was just odd that he is the one freaking out that I am pushing him away and trying to do everything on my own. IT HAS BEEN A YEAR! HE moved out A YEAR AGO! With no sign whatsoever that he has any plans in the near future to come back. He isn't going to just come back on a whim. There is a lot of fixing that must be done if that were to ever happen. I just found it interesting that he was freaking out when he rarely ever talks to me or sees me (compared to the monsterous hours spent on the phone texting and calling OW; 2000 texts last month and I think it was 500 minutes. Between us, around 300 texts and maybe 10 minutes talking). It is all very interesting...

I am still trying to hold out until school is out, but i am trying to get all my ducks in a row so when I do decide to file it will be quicker because I will already have all the info prepared. Also the more I have proof he is still talking to OW and seeing her, the more I know that I am doing the right thing, although I hate it for S. H knows my number one boundary is OW, and he is definitely not trying to change that.