I did email him today & asked him if we could get a babysitter next weekend so we can just go out for an afternoon just the 2 of us. This weekend is out b/c we have to go out of town.

I'm just going to continue to be affectionate & try to connect w/ him again. I think that if I just continue to do that, we will be ok.

Doc, I don't think you're being mean. I completely agree with all you said. I do have "issues" w/ my self esteem. I always have, but the D sitch didn't help at all. There were a lot of cruel things said to me that I don't dwell on, but can never be taken away.

Me: 38
H: 35
S4, S5, S10
Bomb 01/07
Wanted D - nothing would change his mind
Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb
Piecing 04/07
Deployed for a year 05/07
Still Piecing 2010
M 11 yrs 05/10