Hey DLS, by "affair" do u mean the sitch? Or an A? Before moving out I had pretty well ruled out an OM. And if I ever asked if she was seeing someone she would get upset and say "it just can't be about you can it?!". Today is going to b tough, it was 4yrs ago today that we met. I'm trying to avoid a sappy email or txt, even though today was a big one for us. When she says that she doesn't even know if she wants to be married "in general", that worries me. Are you saying that sitchs like mine don't normally end well? I know she can trust me again, heck I was in an R where I was lied to a lot more, and I was able to trust again, so I know it can happen. It just seems like she doesn't have any energy left in her to dedicate to our M. She has been re-writing history, saying I even betrayed her on our wedding day, I was shocked! I pressed and asked how, she the said "well I guess you didn't". She is just looking for any reason to justify, not that I haven't given her plenty. The face that she still wants my friendship is the only thing giving me hope right now.
