Are there signs?

[ericmsant2]

Wild

You say that you are letting go of the anger but this....

I sorta want justice right now. I want her to be reaping and feeling the affects of what she has done RIGHT NOW!.

is the anger that is NORMAL dude. It looks like you are letting it go. The key IMO is to try and avoid cycling.. I think the anger will come and go for some time. Just remember that you can control when you finally release it. You will release it when you feel ready to do so.

I'm trying to not let what she does affect me and in a perfect world I would be ignoring her completely.

Dude I know how hard this one is....Personally, I find that I need to remind myself that her actions are hers. I've said this to you before, you need to cut yourself a little slack dude. Once you get to a point of true detachment and acceptance that NOTHING you do will generate the result that RIGHT now you want..you will begin to distance yourself from this and then begin the process of piecing together the LIFE that YOU want. The life that YOU will control on YOUR terms.

I told her that she doesn't know him and that I shouldn't have to deal with someone texting me and treating me like I'm a messanger boy

So you've laid down a boundary - good. Now you need to stick to it. Next call that comes over that you do not recognize - don't answer.

All in all, the feeling of loneliness isn't going away.

Yep - Let me ask you a question.....What was YOUR LIFE like BEFORE you were M? What did you do to combat these feelings? Have you consider doing these things again.

I don't really see any hope of reconciliation, but that might be because I don't want it.

Hope is not based on anything you see, hear or feel - remember that. The feeling of not wanting it is the pain of rejection taht you are probably going thru right now. Just remember one key thing dude - YOU control your life. You do. You decide when you are done - only you.

God Bless,
Eric