The year of not my problem

[AJM]

Update:
I've run into the running buddy from long ago. I ran into him at a running event. At the time he was going through the same stuff I was going through. Oddly, I think that's part of what she was confused by - his situation and his actions. I think she was using him in many ways and in some ways I feel saddened by that for him. Not too much mind you Anyway, it was good to see he is doing better and getting himself back on track now that his wife left. He is finally waking up and is not allowing her to come back. Good for him says I. She put him through hell. Similar situation to mine oddly.

Anyway, I notice that it is getting easier to withstand her crap. The dynamic is changing yet again and I'm appreciative of that. I think it's me. I really and honestly am coming more to terms with what's happened and why I cannot go back. I see the light at the end of the tunnel and I'm swimming with all I've got to get there. I like that. I'm glad to not be wrapped up in the goo of this bat [censored] crazy stuff. The high school drama. The pain. I feel a great sense of relief yet again and I attribute that to the change in my own attitude. I'm starting to look at things much differently and I like that too.

Life is good. To tell the truth, it has been good, but I wasn't willing to notice and appreciate that. I am now. And the more I do the more that the issues of the past few years really start to fade away. Sure I still get sad or angry or ?? but at least now those feelings come one at a time, wait patiently for the others to finish, and don't stay nearly as long. I like that too.

AJ