I totally understand what your are saying. I felt the same ways. I hated taking the meds and they scared me. To many adicts in my family. But I finally had to do SOMETHING. So I took them just long enough to get back off the floor and start to want to live again. They helped me alot. The key to this whole thing is "acceptance".
Have you ever heard... "accept the things I cannot change, have courage to change the things I can, and have wisdom to know the difference." read it!, learn it!, live it!, it's the ONLY thing you can do. rys, life is way too short to be waisting it like this.
was theotherhalf M43 H43 M22 T25 MLC/OW bomb 4/07 Hmoved out 8/07 D6/09 Still trying to accept and move on...