Thanks Kat and yes, she is history. I feel a bit obsessed with her actually, very bizarre, like a morbid fascination.. why!?! I was never remotely interested in any of bf's exGF's. Seeing her and how attractive she is was hard, as I was confronted with the thing we NEVER talked about..that of course he had s*x with her..and no doubt enjoyed it. A horrible thought, but its just flesh hey, it was never a soul connection.
I still feel a bit embarressed and humiliated that she was so integrated in his life.. but then he does too of course! Just seems even more bizarre as we are now getting married. None of the speeches will be mentioning the fact we split up for 18 months and how they all met Helen and that he was with her this time last year! Its just all a bit wierd, not a 'normal' trajectory for a relationship. Not to any of my friends in RL anyway, which is why its nice to come here and talk to all of you!
I have tried to talk to him about the wierdness of his behaviour and how now its like it never even happened. He just says "I cant explain". I think it will take a few years to be forgotton and I'm looking forward to that.
