You're still standing, and that itself speaks loudly. You discovered that you're surviving; and sometimes, you cannot believe that you had it within you. Infidelity bites, and so does a separation, or a divorce. Just ride it through - one day at a time. Stay busy, visit the board, and surround yourself with friends and family. If you find yourself crying or feeling scared, it's normal. Just hang in there and have faith in yourself. You made it this far...in the near future, your best is yet to come!